I first discovered manifestation when I was about 15.

And I loved it. It felt like magic — I’d write something down, imagine it every day, and somehow, it showed up. One of my favorite memories is when I manifested a beautiful 6-bedroom house — I even had the color of my room picked out (lavender, obviously). I was so sure it was happening, I didn’t doubt it for a second.

Back then, I wasn’t overthinking. I wasn’t obsessed with “how.” I wasn’t wondering if I was doing it right.
I just believed.
And it worked.

Cut to adulthood...
And suddenly it felt harder.
I was doing more — more vision boards, more scripting, more journaling — but somehow, it just wasn’t flowing the way it used to.

And eventually, I realized:
I wasn’t blocked because I wasn’t doing enough.
I was blocked because I was carrying things I didn’t even know were in the way.

So here’s what was actually holding back my manifestations — not the law of attraction, not the methods, but the energy I was bringing to all of it.

1. I Didn’t Know What I Truly Wanted

For the longest time, I thought I was clear.
“I want more money.” “I want a good relationship.” “I want to feel fulfilled.”
But what does any of that actually mean?

What does “good” feel like? What does abundance look like in my body?
It’s like placing an order at a restaurant and saying, “Bring me something nice.” You’ll probably get anything — or nothing.

When I was younger, I was so specific. I imagined the size of the windows in my house, the lavender walls, the balcony.
As an adult, I got vague — and vague energy creates vague results.

2. I Was Operating from “Wanting” — Not Having

I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was constantly in the energy of lack.
Even though I was “manifesting,” underneath it, I was desperate. Anxious. Obsessive.

You know when you keep watching the milk boil and it refuses to bubble… and the minute you look away, it overflows?
Yeah. That’s what I was doing with my manifestations.

I was holding on too tightly.
I wasn’t living like it was already mine.
I was trying to force it into existence.

And you can’t hold onto desire like sand — the tighter your grip, the more it slips through.

3. My Nervous System Didn’t Feel Safe to Receive

This one hit me hard.

It wasn’t that I didn’t want more money, love, or success.
It’s that some part of me didn’t feel safe to actually have it.

I had beliefs I didn’t even realize I was carrying:
That money makes people greedy.
That love means losing yourself.
That visibility brings judgment.

And so, even while I said I wanted those things — deep down, I was resisting them. My subconscious was like, “Nope. Too risky.”

Not sabotage. Just protection.

4. I Was Secretly Bracing for Disappointment

This was sneaky.
I’d say I trusted the universe… but in reality, I was already prepping for plan B.
The doubt would creep in quietly:
“What if it doesn’t work?”
“What if I’m just being unrealistic?”
“What if I’m wasting my time?”

And in that moment — I wasn’t a match for my desires.
Because you can’t be open and bracing for impact at the same time.

Now when I notice doubt, I pause and ask:

“What part of me doesn’t feel safe to believe this is actually possible?”

That question has shifted so much.

5. I Was Obsessed With Controlling the 'How'

And this one? This one took years to release.

I wanted to know how it would happen, when it would happen, who would help me, what steps I needed to take, and how I could “optimize” the process.

Which makes sense — my logical brain loves plans.
But manifestation doesn’t work like that.

Every time I tried to micromanage the journey, I squeezed out the magic.

The universe isn’t slow. It’s precise.
It just doesn’t move on your timeline — it moves on alignment.

So here’s the truth:

Manifestation isn’t about working harder at being “positive.”
It’s not about controlling every thought.
It’s about the subtle energy you hold when no one’s watching.

And if it feels like it’s not working right now?
It doesn’t mean you’re blocked forever. It just means there’s an invitation to shift something within.

But — once I started clearing these patterns, manifestation stopped feeling like a struggle… and started feeling like flow again.

You don’t need to do more.
You just need to come back to alignment.
That’s where the magic begins.